Buckets

        My, aren’t you an early bird! Dr. Edward Cantrell looked down at the doe-eyed child in the five-and-dime Princess Leia costume on his front doorstep and tried to guess her age. A beautiful child of about seven or eight, with flaxen hair and scrawny little shoulders drawn up as if she were afraid of him, as if he might bite her. It occurred to him that today was Wednesday and it was not yet noon. Why wasn’t she in school? Never mind. It was Halloween and it was none of his business why she was getting a jump on the rest of the kids in the trick-or-treat routine.
        Are you looking for a treat? he asked her.
        She nodded slowly, shyly.
        Okay! You got it! He went to the bowl behind him on the hall table and picked out a big Snickers. Then he added a dime to the package. It had become a Halloween tradition over the years that Dr. Cantrell’s place was where you got dimes when you trick-or- treated.
        He thrust his hand through the open space where the screen used to be. He liked to remove the storm door screen on Halloween; it saved him the inconvenience of repeatedly opening the door against the kids pressing against it for their treats; and besides, he worried about one of the little ones being pushed backward off the front steps. A lawsuit could easily follow something like that.
        The little girl lifted her silver bucket.
        He took a closer look. No, not silver - shiny stainless steel, reflecting the dull gray overcast sky. It reminded him of something, but he couldn’t place it at the moment. Strange sort of thing to be collecting Halloween treats in. Probably some new fad. Whatever became of the old pillowcase or the shopping bag, or even the plastic jack-o’-lantern?
        He poised his hand over the bucket, then let the candy bar and dime drop. They landed with a soft squish.
        Not exactly the sound he had expected. He leaned forward to see what else was in the bucket but the child had swung around and was making her way down the steps.
        Out on the sidewalk, some hundred feet away along the maple-lined drive- way. two older children waited for her. A stainless-steel bucket dangled from each of their hands.
        Cantrell shivered as he closed the front door. There was a new chill in the air. Maybe he should put on a sweater. But what color? He checked himself over in the hall mirror. Not bad for a guy looking fifty-two in the eye. That was Erica’s doing. Trading in the old wife for a new model twenty years younger had a rejuvenating effect on him. Also it made him work at staying young-looking - like three trips a week to the Short Hills Nautilus Club and watching his diet. He decided to forego the sweater for now.
        He almost made it back to his recliner and the unfinished New York Times when the front bell rang again. Sighing resignedly, he turned and went back to the front door. He didn’t mind tending to the trick-or-treaters, but he wished Erica were here to share the door duty. Why did she have to pick today for her monthly spending spree in Manhattan? He knew she loved Bloomingdale’s - in fact, she had once told him that after she died she wanted her ashes placed in an urn in the lingerie department there but she could have waited until tomorrow. It was two boys this time, both about eleven, both made up like punkers with orange and green spiked hair, ripped clothes, and crude tattoos, obviously done with a Bic instead of a real tattooers pen. They stood restlessly in the chill breeze, shifting from one foot to the other, looking up and down the block, stainless-steel buckets in hand.
        He threw up his hands. Whoa! Tough guys, eh? I’d better not mess around with the likes of - !
        One of the boys glanced at him briefly, and in his eyes Cantrell caught a flash of rage and hatred - not just for him but for the whole world - that his voice dried away to a whisper. And then the look was gone as if it had never been and the boy was just another kid again. He hastily grabbed a pair of Three Musketeers and two dimes, leaned through the opening in the door, and dropped one of each into their buckets.
        The one on the right went squish and the one on the left went plop.
        He managed to catch just a glimpse at the bottom of the bucket on the right as the kid turned. He couldn’t tell what was in there, but it was red.
        He was glad to see them go. Surly pair, he thought. Not a word out of either of them. And what was in the bottom of that bucket? Didn’t look like any candy he knew, and he considered himself an expert on candy. He patted the belly that he had been trying to flatten for months. More than an expert an aficionado of candy.
        Further speculation was forestalled by a call from Monroe Community Hospital. One of his postpartum patients needed a laxative. He okayed a couple of ounces of Milk of Mag. Then the nurse double-checked his pre-op orders on the hysterectomy tomorrow. He managed to suffer through it all with dignity. It was Wednesday and he always took Wednesdays off. Jeff Sewell was supposed to be taking his calls today, but all the floors at the hospital had the Cantrell home phone number and they habitually tried here first before they went hunting for whoever was covering for him.
        He was used to it. He had learned years ago that there was no such thing as a day off in Ob-Gyn.
        The bell rang again, and for half a second Cantrell found himself hesitant to answer it. He shrugged off the reluctance and pulled open the door.
        Two mothers and two children. He sucked in his gut when he recognized the mothers as longtime patients.
        This is more like it!
         Hi, Dr. Cantrell! the red-haired woman said with a big smile. She put a hand atop the red-haired child’s head. You remember Shana, don’t you? You delivered her five years ago next month.
        I remember you, Gloria he said, noting her flash of pleasure at having her first name remembered. He never forgot a face. But Shana here looks a little bit different from when I last saw her.
        As both women laughed he scanned his mind for the other’s name. Then it came to him:         Yours looks a little bigger too, Diane.
        She sure does. What do you say to Dr. Cantrell, Susan?
        The child mumbled something that sounded like Ricky Meat and held up an orange jack-o’-lantern with a black plastic strap.
        That’s what I like to see! he said. A real Halloween treat holder. Better than those stainless-steel buckets the other kids have been carrying!
        Gloria and Diane looked at each other. Stainless-steel buckets?
        Can you believe it? he said as he got the two little girls each a Milky Way and a dime. My first three Halloween customers this morning carried steel buckets for their treats. Never seen anything like it.
        Neither have we, Diane said.
        You haven’t? You should have passed a couple of boys out on the street.
        No. We’re the only ones around.
        Strange. But maybe they had cut back to the street through the trees as this group entered the driveway.
        He dropped identical candy and coins into the identical jack-o’-lanterns and heard them strike the other treats with a reassuring rustle.
        He watched the retreating forms of the two young mothers and their two happy kids until they were out of sight. This is the way Halloween should be, he thought. Much better than strange hostile kids with metal buckets.
        And just as he completed the thought, he saw three small white-sheeted forms of indeterminate age and sex round the hedge and head up the driveway. Each had a shiny metal bucket in hand.
        He wished Erica were here.
        He got the candy bars and coins and waited at the door for them. He had decided that before he parted with the goodies he was going to find out what these kids were and what they had in their little buckets. Fair was fair.
        The trio climbed to the top step of the stoop and stood there waiting, silently watching him through the eye holes of their sheets.
        Their silence got under his skin. Doesn’t anybody say Trick-or-treat anymore? Well, what have we here? he said with all the joviality he could muster. Three little ghosts ! The Ghostly Trio!
        One of them he couldn’t tell which said, Yes. Good! I like ghosts on Halloween ! You want a treat?
        They nodded as one.
        Okay ! But first you’re gonna have to earn it! Show me what you’ve got in those buckets and I’ll give you each a dime and a box of Milk Duds! How’s that for a deal?
        The kids looked at each other. Some wordless communication seemed to pass between them, then they turned and started back down the steps.
        Hey, kids! Hey, wait! he said quickly, forcing a laugh. I was only kidding! You don’t have to show me anything. Here! Just take the candy.
        They paused on the second step, obviously confused.
        Ever so gently, he coaxed them back. C’mon, kids. I’m just curious about those buckets, is all. I’ve been seeing them all day and I’ve been wondering where they came from. But if I frightened you, well, hey, I’ll ask somebody else later on. He held up the candy and the coins and extended his hand through the door. Here you go
        One little ghost stepped forward but raised an open hand - a little girl’s hand - instead of a bucket.
        He could not bear to be denied any longer. He pushed open the storm door and stepped out, looming over the child, craning his neck to see into that damn little bucket. The child squealed in fright and turned away, crouching over the bucket as if to protect it from him.
        What are they trying to hide? What’s the matter with them? And what’s the matter with me ?
        Really. Who cared what was in those buckets?
        He cared. lt was becoming an obsession with him. He’d go crazy if he didn’t find out.
        Hoping nobody was watching nobody who’d think that he was a child molester he grabbed the little ghost by the shoulders and twisted her toward him. She couldn’t hide the bucket from him now. In the clear light of day he got a good look into it.
        Blood.
        Blood with some floating bits of tissue and membrane lay maybe an inch and a half deep in the bottom.
        Startled and sickened, he could only stand there and stare at the red, swirling liquid. As the child tried to pull the bucket away from him, it tipped, spilling its contents over the front of her white sheet. She screamed more in dismay than terror.
        Let her go! said a little boy’s voice from beside him. Cantrell turned to see one of the other ghosts hurling the contents of his bucket at him. As if in slow motion, he saw the sheet of red liquid and debris float toward him through the air, spreading as it neared. The warm spray splattered him up and down and he reeled back in revulsion.
        By the time he had wiped his eyes clear, the kids were halfway down the driveway. He wanted to chase after them but he had to get out of these bloody clothes first. He’d be taken for a homicidal maniac if someone saw him running after three kids looking like this.
        Arms akimbo, he hurried to the utility room and threw his shirt into the sink. Why? his mind cried as he tried to remember whether hot or cold water set a stain. He tried cold and began rubbing at the blood in the blue oxford cloth.
        He scrubbed hard and fast to offset the shaking of his hands. What a horrible thing for anyone to do, but especially children! Questions tumbled over each other in confusion: What could be going through their sick little minds? And where had they gotten the blood?
        But most of all, Why me?
        Slowly the red color began to thin and run, but the bits of tissue clung. He looked at them more closely. If that doesn’t look like...
        Recognition triggered an epiphany. He suddenly understood everything.
        He now knew who those children were or at least who had put them up to it and he understood why. He sighed with relief as anger flooded through him like a cleansing flame. He much preferred being angry to being afraid.
        He dried his arms with a paper towel and went to call the cops.

        Right-to-lifers, Joe! Has to be them! Sergeant Joe Morelli scratched his head. You sure, Doc?
        Cantrell had known the Morelli family since Joe’s days as a security guard at the Mall, waiting for a spot to open up on the Monroe police force. He had delivered all three of Joe’s kids.
        Who else could it be? Those little stainless steel buckets they carry the ones I told you about they’re the same kind we use in D and C’s, and get this: We used to use them in abortions. The scrapings from the uterus slide down through a weighted speculum into one of those buckets.
        And it was those bloody scrapings that had been splattered all over him.
        But why you, Doc? I know you do abortions now and then - all you guys do but you’re not an abortionist per se, if you know what I’m saying.
        Cantrell nodded, not mentioning Sandy. He knew the subject of Joe’s youngest daughter’s pregnancy two years ago was still a touchy subject. She had only been fifteen but he had taken care of everything for Joe with the utmost discretion. He now had a devoted friend on the police force.
        A thought suddenly flashed through Cantrell’s mind:
        They must know about the women’s center! But how could they?
        It was due to open tomorrow, the first of the month. He had been so careful to avoid any overt connection with it, situating it downtown and going so far as to set it up with a corporate front. Abortions might be legal, but it still didn’t sit well with a lot of people to know that their neighbor ran an abortion mill.
        Maybe that was it. Maybe a bunch of sicko right-to-lifers had connected him with the new center.
        What gets me, Joe was saying, is that if this is real abortion material like you say, where’d they get it?
        I wish I knew. The question had plagued him since he had called the police.         Well, don’t you worry, Doc, Joe said, slipping his hat over his thinning hair. Whatever’s going on, it’s gonna stop. I’ll cruise the neighborhood. If I see any kids, or even adults with any of these buckets, I’ll ID them and find out what’s up.
        Thanks, Joe. he said, meaning it. It was comforting to know a cop was looking out for him. I appreciate that. I’d especially like to get this ugly business cleared up before the wife and I get home from dinner tonight.
        I don’t blame you, he said, shaking his head. l know I wouldn’t want Marie to see any buckets of blood.

        The trick-or-treaters swelled in numbers as the afternoon progressed. They flowed to the door in motley hordes of all shapes, sizes, and colors. A steady stream of Spocks, Skywalkers, Vaders, Indiana Joneses, Madonnas, Motley Crues, Twisted Sisters, and even a few ghosts, goblins, and witches.
        And always among them were one or two kids with steel buckets.
        Cantrell bit his lip and repressed his anger when he saw them. He said nothing, did not try to look into their buckets, gave no sign that their presence meant anything to him, pretended they were no different than the other kids as he dropped candies and coins into the steel buckets among the paper sacks and pillowcases and jack-o’- lanterns, all the while praying that Morelli would catch one of the little bastards crossing the street and find out who was behind this.

        He saw the patrol car pull into the drive around 4:00. Morelli must finally have nailed one of them! About time! He had to leave for the women’s center soon and wanted this thing settled and done with.
        No luck, Doc, Joe said, rolling down his window. You must have scared them off.
        Are you crazy? His anger exploded as he trotted down the walk to the drive- way. They’ve been through here all afternoon !
        Hey, take it easy, Doc. If they’re around, they must be hiding those buckets when they’re on the street, because I’ve been by here about fifty times and I haven’t seen one steel bucket.
        Cantrell reined in his anger. It would do no good to alienate Joe. He wanted the police force on his side.
        Sorry. It’s just that this is very upsetting.
        I can imagine. Look, Doc. Why don’t I do this: Why don’t I just park the car out at the curb and watch the kids as they come in. Maybe I’ll catch one in the act. At the very least, it might keep them away.
         I appreciate that, Joe, but it won’t be necessary. I’m going out in a few minutes and won’t be back until much later tonight. However, I do wish you’d keep an eye on the place vandals, you know.
        Sure thing, Doc. No problem. Cantrell watched the police car pull out of the driveway, then he set the house alarm and hurried to the garage to make his getaway before the doorbell rang again.

The Midtown Women’s Medical Center

        Cantrell savored the effect of the westering sun glinting off the thick brass letters over the entrance as he walked by. Red letters on a white placard proclaimed Grand Opening Tomorrow from the front door. He stepped around the side of the building into the alley, unlocked the private entrance, and stepped inside.
        Dark, quiet, deserted. He had hoped to catch the contractor for one last check of the trim. He wanted everything perfect for the opening.
        He flipped on the lights and checked his watch. Erica would be meeting him here in about an hour, then they would pick up the Klines and have drinks and dinner at the club. He had just enough time for a quick inspection tour.
        So clean, he thought as he walked through the waiting room the floors -- shiny and unscuffed, the carpet pile unmatted, the wall surfaces unmarred by chips or finger smudges. Even the air smelled new.
        This center, his center -- had been in the planning stages for three years. Countless hours of meeting with lawyers, bankers. planning boards, architects, and contractors had gone into it. But at last it was ready to go. He planned to work here himself in the beginning, just to keep overhead down, but once the operation got rolling, he’d hire other doctors and have them do the work while he ran the show from the distance.
        He stepped into Procedure Room One and looked over the equipment. Dominating the wall was the Rappaport 206, a state-of-the-art procedure table with thigh stirrups, three breakaway sections, and fully motorized tilts in all planes Trendelenburg, left and right lateral.
        Close by, the Zarick suction extractor the most efficient abortion device on the market hung gleaming on its chrome stand. He pressed the on button to check the power but nothing happened.
        It won’t work tonight, said a child’s voice behind him, making him almost scream with fright.
        He spun around. Fifteen or twenty kids stood there staring at him. Most were costumed. and they all carried those steel buckets.
        All right! he said. This does it! I’ve had just about enough! I’m getting the police!
        He turned to reach for the phone but stopped after one step. More kids were coming in from the hall. They streamed in slowly and silently, their eyes fixed on him, piercing him. They filled the room, occupying every square foot except for the small circle of space they’d left around him and the equipment. And behind them he could see more, filling the hall and the waiting room beyond. A sea of faces, all staring at him.
        He was frightened now. They were just kids, but there were so many of them! A few looked fifteen or so, and one looked to be in her early twenties, but by far most of them appeared to be twelve and under. Some were even toddlers! What sort of sick mind would involve such tiny children in this?
        And how did they get in? All the doors were locked.
        Get out of here, he said. forcing his voice into calm. measured tones.
        They said nothing, merely continued to stare back at him.
        All right, then. if you won’t leave, I will! And when I return... He tried to push by a five year old girl in a gypsy costume. Without warning she jabbed her open hand into his abdomen with stunning force, driving him back against the table.
        Who are you? This time his voice was less calm, his tones less measured.
        You mean you don’t recognize us? a mocking voice said from the crowd.
        I’ve never seen any of you before today.
        Not true, said another voice. After our fathers, you’re the second most important man in our lives.
        This was insane! I don’t know any of you!
        You should. Another voice- were they trying to confuse him by talking from different spots in the room?
        Why?
        Because you killed us.
        The absurdity of the statement made him laugh. He straightened from the table and stepped forward. Okay. That’s it. This isn’t the least bit funny.
        A little boy shoved him back, roughly, violently. His strength was hideous.
        M-my wife will be here s-soon. He was ashamed of the stammer in his voice. but he couldn’t help it. She’ll call the police.
        Sergeant Morelli, perhaps? The voice was more mature than the others - more womanly. He found her and looked her in the eye. She was the tall one in her early twenties, dressed in a sweater and skirt. He had a sudden crazy thought that maybe she was a young teacher and these were her students on a class trip. But these kids looked like they spanned all grades from pre-school to junior high.
        Who are you?
        I don’t have a name, she said, facing him squarely. Very few of us do. But this one does. She indicated a little girl at her side, a toddler made up like a hobo in raggedy clothes with burnt cork rubbed on her face for a beard. An Emmett Kelly dwarf. Here, Laura, she said to the child as she urged her forward. Show Dr. Cantrell what you looked like last time he saw you.
        Laura stepped up to him. Behind the makeup he could see that she was a beautiful child with short dark hair, a pudgy face, and big brown eyes. She held her bucket out to him.
        She was eleven weeks old, the woman said, three inches long, and weighed fourteen grams when you ripped her from her mother’s uterus. She was no match for you and your suction tube.
        Blood and tissue swirled in the bottom of her bucket. You don’t expect me to buy this, do you ?
        I don’t care what you buy, Doctor. But this is Sandra Morelli’s child - or at least what her child would look like now if she’d been allowed to be born. But she wasn’t born. Her mother had names all picked out - Adam for a boy, Laura for a girl but her grandfather bullied her mother into an abortion and you were oh- so-willing to see that there were no problems along the way.
        This is absurd! he said.
        Really? the woman said. Then go ahead and call Sergeant Morelli. Maybe he’d like to drive down and meet his granddaughter. The one you killed.
        I killed no one! he shouted. No one! Abortion has been legal since 1974! Absolutely legal! And besides she wasn’t really alive!
        What’s the matter with me? he asked himself. I’m talking to them as if I believe them!
        Oh, yes, the woman said, I forgot. Some political appointees decided that we weren’t people and that was that. Pretty much like what happened to East European Jews back in World War II. We’re not even afforded the grace of being called embryos or fetuses. We’re known as ‘products of conception.’ What a neat, dehumanizing little phrase. So much easier to scrape the ‘products of conception’ into a bucket than a person.
        I’ve had just about enough of this! he said.
        So? a young belligerent voice said. What’re y’gonna do?
        He knew he was going to do nothing. He didn’t want to have another primary grade kid shove him back against the table again. No kid that size should be that strong. It wasn’t natural.
        You can’t hold me responsible! he said. They came to me, asking for help. They were pregnant and they didn’t want to be. Why, I didn’t make them pregnant!
        Another voice: No, but you sure gave them a convenient solution!
        So blame your mothers! They’re the ones who spread their legs and didn’t want to take responsibility for it. How about them?
        They’re not absolved. the woman said. They shirked their responsibilities to us, but the vast majority of them are each responsible for one of us. You, Dr. Cantrell, are responsible for all of us. Most of them were scared teenagers, like Laura’s mother, who were bullied and badgered into ‘terminating’ us. Others were too afraid of what their parents would say so they snuck off to women’s medical centers like this and lied about their age and put us out of their misery.
        Not all of them, sweetheart! he said. He was beginning to feel he was on firmer ground now. Many a time I’ve done three or four on the same woman! Don’t tell me they were poor, scared teenagers. Abortion was their idea of birth control!
        We know, a number of voices chorused, and something in their tone made him shiver. We’ll see them later.
        The point is, the woman said, that you were always there, always ready with a gentle smile, a helpful hand, an easy solution, a simple way to get them off the hook by getting rid of us. And a bill, of course.
        If it hadn’t been me, it would’ve been someone else!
        You can’t dilute your own blame. Or your own responsibility, said a voice from behind his chair. Plenty of doctors refuse to do abortions.
        If you were one of those, said another voice to his left, we wouldn’t be here tonight.
        The law lets me do it. The Supreme Court. So don’t blame me. Blame those Supreme Court justices.
        That’s politics. We don’t care about politics.
        But I believe in a woman’s right to control her own life, to make decisions about her own body!
        We don’t care what you believe. Do you think the beliefs of a terrorist matter to the victims of his bombs? Don’t you understand? This is personal.
        A little girl’s voice said, I could have been adopted, you know. I would’ve made someone a good kid. But I never had the chance!
        They all began shouting at once, about never getting Christmas gifts or birthday presents or hugs or tucked in at night or playing with matches or playing catch or playing house or even playing doctor -
        It seemed to go on endlessly. Finally the woman held up her bucket. All their possibilities ended in here.
        Wait a minute! he said. He had just discovered a significant flaw in their little show. Only a few of them ended up in buckets! If you were up on your facts, you’d know that no one uses those old D and C buckets for abortions anymore. He pointed to the glass trap on the Zarick suction extractor. This is where the products of conception wind up.
        The woman stepped forward with her bucket. They carry this in honor of me. I have the dubious distinction of being your first victim.
        You’re not my victim! he shouted. The law...
        She spat in his face. Shocked and humiliated, Cantrell wiped away the saliva with his shirt sleeve and pressed himself back against the table. The rage in her face was utterly terrifying.
        The law? she hissed. Don’t speak of legalities to me! Look at me! I’d be twenty-two now and this is how I’d look if you hadn’t murdered me. Do a little substraction, Doctor: 1974 was a lot less than twenty-two years ago. I’m Ellen Benedict’s daughter or at least I would have been if you hadn’t agreed to do that D and C on her when she couldn’t find a way to explain her pregnancy to her impotent husband!
        Ellen Benedict! How did they know about Ellen Benedict? Even he had forgotten about her!
        The woman stepped forward and grabbed his wrist. He was helpless against her strength as she pressed his hand over her left breast.
        He might have found the softness beneath her sweater exciting under different circumstances, but now it elicited only dread.
        Feel my heart beating? It was beating when your curette ripped me to pieces. I was only four weeks old. And I’m not the only one here you killed before 1974 I was just your first. So you can’t get off the hook by naming the Supreme Court as an accomplice. And even if we allowed you that cop-out, other things you’ve done since ’74 are utterly abominable! She looked around and pointed into the crowd. There’s one! Come here, honey, and show your bucket to the doctor.
        A five or six year old boy came forward. He had blond bangs and the biggest, saddest blue eyes the doctor had ever seen. The boy held out his bucket.
        Cantrell covered his face with his hands. I don’t want to see!
        Suddenly he felt his hands yanked downward with numbing force and found the woman’s face scant inches from his own.
        Look, you! You’ve seen it before! He looked into the upheld bucket. A fully formed male fetus lay curled in the blood, its blue eyes open, its head turned at an unnatural angle.
        This is Rachel Walraven’s baby as you last saw him.
        The Walraven baby! Oh. not that one! How could they know? What you see is how he’d look now if you hadn’t broken his neck after the abortifacient you gave his mother made her uterus dump him out.
        He couldn’t have survived! he shouted. He could hear the hysteria edging into his voice. He was pre- viable! Too immature to survive! The best neonatal ICU in the world couldn’t have saved him!
        Then why’d you break my neck? the little boy asked.
        Cantrell could only sob a single harsh sound that seemed to rip itself from the tissues inside his chest and burst free into the air. What could he say? How could he tell them that he had miscalculated the length of gestation and that no one had been more shocked than he at the size of the infant that had dropped into his gloved hands. And then it had opened its eyes and stared at him and, oh, it seemed to be trying to breathe! He’d done late terminations before where the fetus had squirmed around awhile in the bucket before finally dying, but this one !
        He remembered thinking, What if he lets out a cry? He’d get sued by the patient and be the laughing stock of the staff. Poor Ed Cantrell - can’t tell the difference between an abortion and a delivery! He’d look like a jerk!
        So he’d done the only thing that he could do. He gave its neck a sharp twist as he lowered it into the bucket. The neck didn’t even crack when he broke it.
        Why have you come to me? he said.
        Answer us first, a child’s voice said. Why do you do it? You don’t need the money. Why do you kill us?
        I told you! I believe in a woman’s right to --...
        They began to boo him, drowning him out. Then the boos changed to a chant: Why? Why? Why? Why?
        Stop that! Listen to me! I told you why!
        But still they chanted, sounding like a crowd at a football game: Why? Why? Why? Why?
        Finally he could stand it no more. He raised his fists and screamed. All right! Because I can! Is that what you want to hear? I do it because I can!
        The room was suddenly dead silent.
        The answer startled him. He had never asked himself why before. Because I can, he said softly.
        Yes, the woman said with equal softness. The ultimate power.
        He suddenly felt very old, very tired. What do you want of me?
        No one answered.
        Why have you come?
        They all spoke as one: Because today, this Halloween, this night . . . we can. And we don’t want this place to open, the woman said.
         So that was it. They wanted to kill the women’s center before it got started- abort it, so to speak. He almost smiled at the pun. He looked at their faces, their staring eyes. They mean business, he thought. And he knew they wouldn’t take no for an answer.
        Well, this was no time to stand on principle. Promise them anything, then get the hell out of here to safety.
        Okay, he said, in what he hoped was a meek voice. You’ve convinced me, I’ll turn this into a general medical center. No abortions. Just family practice for the community.
        They watched him silently. Finally a voice said, He’s lying.
        The woman nodded. I know. She turned to the children. Do it, she said.
        Pure chaos erupted as the children went wild. They were like a berserk mob, surging in all directions. But silent. So silent.
        Cantrell felt himself shoved aside as the children tore into the procedure table and the Zadrick extractor. The table was ripped from the floor and all its upholstery shredded. Its sections were torn free and hurled against the walls with such force that they punctured through the plasterboard.
        The rage in the children’s eyes seemed to leak out into the room, filling it, thickening the air like an onrushing storm, making his skin ripple with fear at its ferocity.
        As he saw the Zarick start to topple, he forced himself forward to try to save it but was casually slammed against the wall with stunning force. In a semi-daze. he watched the Zarick raised into the air onto the floor, not just once, but over and over until it was nothing more than a twisted wreck of wire, plastic hose, and ruptured circuitry.
        And from down the hall he could hear similar carnage in the other procedure rooms. Finally the noise stopped and the room was packed with children again.
        He began to weep. He hated himself for it, but he couldn’t help it. He just broke down and cried in front of them. He was frightened. And all the money, all the plans . . . destroyed.
        He pulled himself together and stood up straight. He would rebuild. All this destruction was covered by insurance. He would blame it on vandalism, collect the money, and have the place brand-new inside of a month. These vicious children weren’t going to stop him.
        But he couldn’t let them know that.
        Get out, all of you, he said softly. you’ve had your fun. You’ve ruined me. Now leave me alone.
        We’ll leave you alone, said the woman who would have been Ellen Benedict’s child. But not yet.’’
        Suddenly they began to empty their buckets on him, hurling the contents at him in a continuous wave, turning the air red with flying blood and tissue, engulfing him on all sides, choking him, clogging his mouth and nostrils. And then they reached for him . . .
        Erica knocked on the front door of the center for the third time and still got no answer.
        Now where can he be? she thought as she walked around to the private entrance. She tried the door and found it unlocked. She pushed in but stopped on the threshold.
        The waiting room was lit and looked normal enough.
        Ed? she called, but he didn’t answer. Odd. His car was out front. She was supposed to meet him here at five. She had taken a cab from the house after all, she didn’t want Ginger dropping her off here; there would be too many questions.
        This was beginning to make her uneasy.
        She glanced down the hallway. It was dark and quiet.
        Almost quiet.
        She heard tiny little scraping noises, tiny movements, so soft that she would have missed them if there had been any other sound in the building. The sound seemed to come from the first procedure room. She stepped up to the door and listened to the dark. Yes, they were definitely coming from in there.
        She flipped on the light...and felt her knees buckle.
        The room was red the walls, the ceiling, the remnants of the shattered fixtures, all dripping with red. The clots and the coppery odor that saturated the air left no doubt in Erica’s reeling mind that she was looking at blood. But on the floor the blood-puddle linoleum was littered with countless shiny, silvery buckets. The little rustling sounds were coming from them. She saw something that looked like hair in a nearby bucket and took a staggering step over to see what was inside.
        It was Edward’s head, floating in a pool of blood, his eyes wide and mad, looking at her. She wanted to scream but the air clogged in her throat as she saw Ed’s lips beginning to move. They were forming words but there was no sound, for there was no lungs to push air through the larynx. Yet still his lips kept moving in what seemed to be silent pleas. But pleas for what?
        And then he opened his mouth wide and screamed silently.

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        Comments: There is a lot of truth in this story even though it is science-fiction. The story closed with him screaming silently. There is a video put out by one of the biggest abortionists in the country at one time. He is totally pro-life now. Anyway the video shows a baby being aborted and the mouth opens to scream, but the baby can't be heard, it's in a bag of water! If an abortionist took you and put you in a bathtub full of water and held you under the water and started pulling your legs and arms off, nobody would hear you scream. Many abortionists kill for the money. but not all. If you read the book Lime 5, many back alley abortionists are front alley abortionists now. They don't do it really any different today, but they can do it legally now. Some abortionists put the same instrument up one girl that he that he put up another one just a few minutes earlier without cleaning it. Abortion is a dim business so why should they care. The book proves that ever so many girls are being molested and even raped while they are laying on the table. They can't do much about it and the abortionists know it. The book gives the court cases and you can find out the people's names and everything that transpired in any case you would like to know more about. (Lime 5, by Mark Crutcher, Life Dynamics, Inc., P.O. Box 2226, Denton, TX 76202, Phone 817-380-8800) Many women have gone to these back alley abortionists hoping they can get rid of their baby without their parents, boyfriend, or husband finding out about it. On and on the reasons go, they want to finish school, etc. So abortionists know they are fairly safe, knowing he can do anything to the woman while she is laying there with her legs spread. Who is she going to tell???
        Abortionists kill babies who have been bom alive after the abortion. I have a good friend who was a doctor at St. Luke's Hospital, and he knew all four abortionists in Boise. Three of them kill at St. Luke's. The doctor friend of mine wrote a paper that they handed out at St. Luke's for a few years and I would like to share a little bit of it now: "St Luke's Hospital permits abortions on demand in the hospital at any time during the pregnancy. This means a child may be murdered the day before birth. St. Luke's has admitted an attempted abortion by saline injection at five and one-half months, resulting in the birth of a live baby, which was then allowed to die by withholding all care. This killing was performed by Duane St. Clair, a local abortionist."
        Abortion is the murder of innocent pre-bom children for profit - child sacrifice for convenience. Today it is the killing of defenseless unborn children. Tomorrow it will be the killing of the handicapped and the elderly.
        This presentation is made available by Ekklesia Communications, a Christian concern and the responsibility of Danny Bunn, bom-again believer in the Lord Jesus Christ.

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